there are some things

that i strongly dislike. deadlines for example. they're just not nice and when you have too many of them you tend to just procrastinate even more. and then you feel bad. and then your happiness curve drops drastically. today we did some calculus in maths class. i wonder if i can use calculus to calculate my mood. interesting. i'll talk to bill(1). this footnote thing is a good invention. especially because they don't count in most ib(2) word counts. two days i finished knitting this tuc(3) that i started a long time ago. it is a spiderweb tuc and i think people are into spiderwebs and tucs in this place, because i already have someting like five people on a waiting list for a sofie-made spiderweb tuc. this poses interesting questions that i normally think quite a lot about. firstly, do i really want to start mass production of tucs? will i then become a victim of simulacra(4)? i think i don't mind. call me a victim of our time. i started building a scandinavian design inspired house today. well it's actually more of an installation. it's a scandinavian swastik made of wood house. i think it'll be cool. i'll post a picture when it's finished. today is ee(5) day. i have to finish my first draft by tomorrow, so that nitin(6) can 'spend some time with it'. really all i want to do is play my guitar and sing cheesy songs. like 'you were meant for me' by jewel. but i think i'll leave that alone for now. have you ever thought about just how perfect nature is? else, can you give me some philosophical input on this one? thank you. it's time to clean the room before i start my ee. i feel better now. (1) bill is my maths teacher. his mom is sick so he's going to the us for some time now. that means we have to do a lot of homework. i like maths so that's fine. (2) ib stands for international baccalaureate and this happens to be the curriculum i study. when it comes to footnotes, the ib is nice and doesn't include it in your word count. except in economics. why? i don't know and i don't take economics so i don't really have to know. (3) tuc is the canadian word for something nice and warm that you put on your head in winter. or summer if you're cold. (4) simulacra is hard to describe. have you read 'the hour of the star'? you will understand it better then. basically it describes the proces of the copy becoming the authentic work. (5) ee stands for extended essay. this is an ib requirement. it has to be approximately 4000 words. (i think shane has like 7000 including footnotes. oh sweet, shrewd shane.) whereas shane's ee is about revival of languages, mine is about minority groups requesting autonomy and the consequences of such requests. case study: albanians in macedonia. (6) nitin is one of the economics teachers in this school. he is also the wada parent of wada 3, and he is my ee supervisor. ironically, it is me pushing him to give me deadines. i need a kick in the ass. even if i have to kick myself.